What if….

Lately I have been asked a bunch..”hows Lydia adjusting to Asher?’ the simple answer is ‘she is doing fine.’ Our family is large..(according to todays standards.) We had 5 children in 7 years, one right after another. Why do we have so many children? Is it healthy for us? Do we make enough money? You will regret it… the comments could go on and on. But as of this past week, as I look around my little brood of humans.. I see something.. something different. baby #5

What if.

Yes I long to hold my little baby after 9 long months, Yes I love they way they smell, Yes watching them grow makes me giddy. But is that why we have them? Maybe. But what if that #2, #5, #9th child isn’t about you at all?

What if … its for them. The other humans (littles) in your home?
So the questions HOW is lydia… here are a few snap shots of the last 8 weeks.

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Lydia pulled the wipe pkg out and stood on it could she could not see ‘aaa’

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asking to hold him for the first time.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Our family is a reflection of love that grows.. grows within my heart as a mother but in the hearts of our other children. Our boys often say.. “when God blesses us with another baby..” Having each one is directly in part to the Fact God wanted the current kent kids to have another sibling. As I see Lydia (who’s first word is “aaaa’ -the simple sound of Aa) and her delight and excitment each morning when she runs room to room hollering “aaaaa” in search of her friend. Her brother. No where in her is jealously or hurt feelings.

Then I see today where Judah and Levi both took special time with her because they wanted to… loving on her showing her she is special.

IMG_20150325_173922 IMG_20150327_111112804_HDROne doing spelling while holding and gently talking to her, the other sharing a snack together.

What if she was born for them..

IMG_20150306_093324910_HDRWhat if my large family has nothing to do with me or superman but all to do with THEM…

them needing each other

them wanting each other

God loving them enough.

What if its NOTHING about us.. but all about God’s plan?

What if?!?!

~Jessica

 

 

Why I married HIM…

Unlike what you are thinking this post isn’t to Boast or brag about my AMAZING Superman.. Although don’t get me wrong he is ‘AMAZING’:) It is more a post about why…. let me explain!

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When we got married 8.5 years ago I knew without a shadow of a doubt that he was the man I was called to marry.. NO there wasn’t a (insert deep voice-from God) “MARRY HIM JESSICA!” but there WAS a peace.. The event surrounding our courtship (of 6 months) and then engagement was anything less than fun. Lots of ‘important people’ had many different opinions. Without going into all that, (its a story for another time!:) We decided to move forward and marry.

I knew I loved him and that God had brought us together. I had always wanted a man who loved me 2nd.. yes 2nd  to God. And He did. I would always be first when it comes to this world but 2nd when it came to God. To me that was more than I could ever dreamed or hope for.

Now 8.5 years later, a drastic move (3 months after marrying), no family close, 3.5 kids, and a home we are here.. (whatever that mean..) living life together. Now there are no roses or chocolate everyday and some days are hard. But we had a short mini conversation last week that lead to this post…..

Our financial status has changed.. well not really but it seems like it has.. the ends meet but with nothing left to spare. (BECAUSE WE SERVE A GREAT GOD! DUH!) But as he and I were in the kitchen talking about how the $ just isnt there.. i looked over and said.. “well at least we have each other!”

What I mean by that is .. statically couples fight over money and the lack or abundance of it. Who spends what, why they spend it ect.. I can honestly say we have never fought over money.. why?!? Well for one we trust the other person and we share the same Financial goals personally, and as a family. These two things make a huge impact!

The old saying ‘you cant live on love alone’…. well i disagree.. Love is what keeps us focused and together.. if we didn’t ‘love’ each other this season would have been EXTRA (or really that much) hard-er. We may not have but 17 cents in our bank account.. but TOGETHER (because we love and respect each other) will do whatever it takes to make it work for OUR family! Not give up or quitting ..instead be willing to fight for it.

There has been many sacrifices made over the past 3-5 months.. but we are still inlove and making it.. not by our own but because we listened to God and followed him as he lead us to each other..

NOW i started this posted with.. Why I married Him.. to finished it would be ‘because I know without a doubt God placed him in my life to LIVE life and because I LOVED him…”

I would must rather be POOR and inlove than Rich and not.. that is just me!!

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Then the LORD God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper who is just right for him.”

Genesis 2:18 NLV

What are your thoughts????

~jessica

Quiet Time

YEP this describes my life….

“You’re picking up toys on the living room floor for the…15th time today
Matching up socks and sweeping up lost Cheerios that got away
You put a baby on your hip, color on your lips and head out the door
While I may not know you I bet I know you wonder sometimes
Does it matter at all
Let me remind you it all matters just as long as you

Do everything you do to the glory of the One who made you
Cause He made you
To do every little thing that you do to bring a smile to His face
And tell the story of grace with every move that you make
In every little thing you do” -lyrics and song by Steven Curtis Chapman “Do Everything”

Because being a mom is soo hard.. NOW dont get me wrong.. it amazing and one of the most blessed jobs EVER! BUT It does have its hard days where your oldest fights you on every word you say, your toddler hits your friends child and then your baby screams for no reason… Oh and then there is dinner to make, floors to clean, and all while staying calm… BUT I have to remember when my baby snuggles my shoulder in the morning for extra love, or my toddler brings me every flower from here to the mailbox..everyday.. and when my oldest will randomly sign “i love you” to me.. those are the moments… BUT all that being said, i can not do it alone.. Yes i am married to an amazing man “superman” but i need more..

Thus brings me to my nap time – quiet time. This is when me and God spent time together.. now don’t get me wrong, i am working on this to make it a MUST everyday.. things come up, i forget, kids dont sleep.. BUT i am making it a priority now.. WHY?? Cause i need it!

This is what my quiet time looks like…

Quiet time @ Naptime

My bible, NIV study Bible (love it, have had it since i was 18… lots of things i have written over the years!)

My Blue Letter Bible reading program

Prayers for My husband and Kids

& my newest addition.. their handprints.. found this idea over here

http://lillightomine.com/a-praying-mom—part-1.php

I traced each child’s hand and then prayed and chose a verse i wanted to pray this year over them… wrote it on it. Now i have to laminate it… 🙂

I feel soo strengthened by spending time with God.. its amazing how i know when i dont ..eek (and more than likely those around me know also)

God’s grace is enough.. for those hard times and those happy times.. i encourage you to find a time to sit and talk with God… it can be at anytime, anywhere.. when i was in college it was in my car in the parking lot between classes.. i LOVED the weather, and no distractions! See, just pick a time, place and then stick to it! Lets do this challenge together!

Let me know when you do your quiet time and what it looks like for you!

~jessica