What if….

Lately I have been asked a bunch..”hows Lydia adjusting to Asher?’ the simple answer is ‘she is doing fine.’ Our family is large..(according to todays standards.) We had 5 children in 7 years, one right after another. Why do we have so many children? Is it healthy for us? Do we make enough money? You will regret it… the comments could go on and on. But as of this past week, as I look around my little brood of humans.. I see something.. something different. baby #5

What if.

Yes I long to hold my little baby after 9 long months, Yes I love they way they smell, Yes watching them grow makes me giddy. But is that why we have them? Maybe. But what if that #2, #5, #9th child isn’t about you at all?

What if … its for them. The other humans (littles) in your home?
So the questions HOW is lydia… here are a few snap shots of the last 8 weeks.

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Lydia pulled the wipe pkg out and stood on it could she could not see ‘aaa’

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asking to hold him for the first time.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Our family is a reflection of love that grows.. grows within my heart as a mother but in the hearts of our other children. Our boys often say.. “when God blesses us with another baby..” Having each one is directly in part to the Fact God wanted the current kent kids to have another sibling. As I see Lydia (who’s first word is “aaaa’ -the simple sound of Aa) and her delight and excitment each morning when she runs room to room hollering “aaaaa” in search of her friend. Her brother. No where in her is jealously or hurt feelings.

Then I see today where Judah and Levi both took special time with her because they wanted to… loving on her showing her she is special.

IMG_20150325_173922 IMG_20150327_111112804_HDROne doing spelling while holding and gently talking to her, the other sharing a snack together.

What if she was born for them..

IMG_20150306_093324910_HDRWhat if my large family has nothing to do with me or superman but all to do with THEM…

them needing each other

them wanting each other

God loving them enough.

What if its NOTHING about us.. but all about God’s plan?

What if?!?!

~Jessica

 

 

Our gummy bear….

Today I went for my first appointment with #5! It was a long road due to insurance and doctors.. but none the less I went today. I felt pretty sure i knew the due date and ABOUT the age of my baby .. around 13.5 weeks due about Jan 2, 2015. I record my monthly friend so I kinda knew. BUT what I didn’t take into account was that I am post baby only 7 months and things get tricky with all that:) SOOO today we got to see our little baby..

baby #5

We are actually only 10 weeks and 5 days.. and our due date is Jan 24th, 2015 (3 days shy of my 32 birthday)!!! I am so excited that christmas will not be up in the air this year as it was last year due to Our Miss Chickadee’s arrival. We will be able to celebrate and then pack it up and then gear up for sweet #5!!

When i walked in the house with the pictures I got the best responses EVER!

Joel- looks like a gummy bear

Levi- is there two?!?!? (NOPE just one:)

Judah- is it a boy or girl?

Selah- I want -pointing to the top- that one!:)

I am beyond thrilled! As of today baby is super healthy and right on target! And momma is doing great! (besides ALREADY showing!!!) 🙂

Looking forward to the next 29 weeks and 3 days!
~jessica

all grown up….

Our little Chickadee just hit 6 months.. MAN does it fly… We felt it was time to start a few solids for her…

 

her 6 month update

her 6 month updated

I was given a box of rice so we started that monday.. SHE was a fan…:) Poor girl was HANGREY (yes spelled like big sis says it:)

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big brother had to get in on the action

big brother had to get in on the action

girlfriend wanted MORE:)

girlfriend wanted MORE:)

For the first time in FOREVER she slept from 10-5:00 I WAS on cloud 9! (to bad it was a one night deal!) But starting today we are doing cereal for breakfast and dinner:) hoping for a better night:)

Our little #4 is growing up SOOOO fast!
~Jess

baby # what?!?!

Well, this post has been a long time coming.. and just to be fair.. this is my experience and something i feel like sharing. Not all agree but this is my ‘story’ and my blog.. so here it goes.. Brace yourself! 🙂

On Dec 4th, 2013 we gave birth to our 4th blessing.. We have been married for 9 years come may 7th and have 4 kids six and under (as of today:) . Over the past years Joel and I have gotten may different responses to our family. Most of them started out like this…Screen shot 2013-06-14 at 1.52.34 PM

(COME ON how true is this..??) And just like the picture says.. ALL of this has happened to us (well we aren’t on #5 yet…). What pushed me to write this post is because the other day in the post office I had all 4 kiddo’s with me.. and might i brag being WELL behaved.. all standing around my legs like little chickens (trust me this is rare!) But the lady at the counter next to me.. went off to the teller (which was RIGHT next to me) my cat has less babies than her… does she know what causes it? THAT is why I stopped at 3, and on and on…… At first i laughed.. was she really talking about me in front of me?!?! Well the teller is my friend and simply said “what?? are you talking about her..{pointing to me}? Her kids are great, and its not really your business.!” When the said lady left… the teller apologized to me, and even though i know her stand is to only have 2 kids (which she has and is super happy about) she never once has put me or my kids down. And watching her stand up for me, was pricesless!

what we look like on any give day at the post office!

what we look like on any give day at the post office!

Since I was little i dreamed of a large family.. to me that was lots of kids. Not knowing if i could have them myself or not but i have friends that can attest that i dreamed of adopting a LONG time ago. So to some me with 4 kids is no shock. But for some reason to SOME it is a huge shock. A little history.. i am the oldest of 6 kids, Superman is the youngest of 2… When we set out on the journey of marriage we agreed (just as most family do) on how we wanted our family to unfold.. for some that is birth control, for some that is wide open, for some it is a few and then no more, it looks different for each family. For us.. (and ill say it again FOR US) we felt a peace about being cautious and leaving it up to God.  Something Superman and I both agreed on. We have decided to let God handle how many children we have.. and we know because we give him full power over our fiancees, salvation, destiny, jobs, why would we stop short and not give him full power over this area. NOW this is our choice not everyones. I know there is a ‘full quiver’ movement going on.. we are not apart of that.. this is something we feel for our family.

Some may say.. that YOU SHOUL D BE DONE.. (trust me we have heard this from both family and friends).  May I add that those are very hurtful comments.. Many post about how they struggle with not being able to have children, and things that are hurtful.. Well this is very hurtful to those who have children. Constantly saying “they better be done”, “OOH they are done..I hope”. But I cant find that in the bible and honestly what we do in this area is between a husband and a wife. Not family or friends. I love being a mom, what if the next president or doctor is to be out #5 or #8 (not sure ill make it that far:) haha!! God has a plan and we have to trust.

what i asked for, for mothers day!:)

what i asked for, for mothers day!:)

No matter if we have 1 child or 10 .. the real question is are we pointing them to God, are we investing in them, at the end of the day are we praying over them and seeking wisdom to point them in God’s loving ways??? I read an excerpt from this book once that said this…

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I share this post only to ask you to peek inside my world and realize we are doing what we feel called to do. Please don’t judge us as we will not judge you!

Now on to more FUN posts:)

~jessica

 

PS: NOT an announcement!:)