inner circle

I only have 6.. 1/2 of what Jesus had..

12 was the number in his inner circle, who demanded his attention, didnt understand him, kept falling asleep, lied to him, stood up for him. 12 men who were completely different.

As I look at my little disciples I see an array of personalities, one soft spoken, one full of energy, one studious, one passionate, one hungry -all.the.time-, one gentle. These 6 little people were all raised in the same house by the same two people, yet all so uniquely created. I daily have to cry out to the Lord for help in leading thier hearts.

Why does so-in-so behave this way, or that? did i fail? did we miss the mark? These are questions I as their mother often ask. But I was reminded of the inner circle of Christ.

For 3 years 12 men, walked, ate, slept, lived side-by-side with Jesus. He lead them both by words and by example, yet each one decide to take his own path.

Peter was the only one who walked on water, John wrote 5 books in the bible, James was the passionate one, Andrew was a missionary, and Judas was the betrayer.

Why did they not all become unweavering, trust without a doubt, christians.. I mean they DID learn from the Master?

Because they were each created to accomplish a task. their own task. Each were given the tools THEY need to succeed in life. Each with a purpose.

Same for my 6 littles. They are raised the same but each are given tools, i.e. personalities that set them apart from the pack, allowing them each to make the a difference, in a way no one else can.

Now I seek God {daily} to help me pull and lead my little disciples to fulfill great things for God, wither it be that one reads a history book, writes a history book, or becomes a character in said book. Although a struggle, this verse rings true….

Galatians 6:9  So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up.

They are each different, as I am different than them.. I dont want my Savior to compare me to another, so I should not compare, but instead pull out the strengths and tap into the weakness.


still learning.