Glory…. huh!?!

Ive got 5 minutes (the kids are napping.. so more than likely less!!). How to write in words what my heart feels?!? I should tell (i talk better  than i write) it to my dear friend over at sarahpangburn.wordpress.com she writes a billion times better than i.. but its nap time for her too so i shall press through and gather my thoughts. (HAHA)

10 months… (really longer) the dream of my sweet Asher Quinn has been alive. Now not known to me or Joel but to God.. yes. He knew him before he was born. Thus the dream to know he would join our family is fulfilling a purpose BIGGER than mine. From being told i was going to have a csection with Lydia (#4) and at the same time having a full hysterectomy to everything turning out ok and a natural birth happened.. -Story is found here– to having postpartum preeclampsia – very rare.. to GETTING pregnant while our little was only 4 months old. UH! a lot uh!?!? id say so. God had a plan correction

HAS

a plan for this special baby. 1 week ago i sat on the couch holding Asher thinking with each breath it could be his last.. why cause he was gasping for air. I had no car.. both joel and my sister had the cars and were working late.. and 4 littles were asleep. I instantly knew our life is but a vapor…. (he began breathing again we still are unsure why he was doing that but needless to say i sat upright all night holding him on my chest)

Fast forward to this week.. and i have been pretty ill.. high temps (103 was the highest…) and feeling just CRAPPY! My dear friend sent me this verse…

2 Corinthians 12:8-10New International Version (NIV)

8 Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

NOW what is my point here?! Well I think I might have gathered all the dots….as i sat alone yesterday and studied what Paul was saying i felt like him. Although my “thorn” wasn’t his… I have tons… from having judgments made about our family size, to personal attacks to heath issues. But as i hafved joked with my friend saying “i sure am being joyful.” I haven’t been. I been letting things bother me..

why did i have a c-section

why do i feel so crappy

why cant i jump back to my normal self

why do i have no family here (note we felt called to move here 10 years ago… our decision family would help if closer)

why ..why..why

WELL because Gods Glory is shown in my weakness…for the past month my village (as another friend has termed it) or life partners… have stepped in and taken the reigns. From kid keeping, to meal bring to doing all the things i just cant. So many times I have sat and thought.. how am i gonna make today work.. and someone will say “hey can i take the boys’ or ‘I’m bring Dinner you cant say no’. That is showing Christ’s love…..

Levi asked me the other day, i think it is so nice that our friends have brought dinner.. I explained that THAT is what walking with believers is all about.. doing the everyday, hard, fun and not so fun things with them. When we do it alone ..its hard.. but when we surround ourselves with a group we lift up each other in prayer and help.

As Joel prayed with me this morning i was reminded that.. God loves me .. i am part of HIS plan.. And his glory WILL always be shown in my weakness..

I may be weak, but

Your Spirit’s strong in me.

My flesh may fail, but
My God You never will . (repeat 2x)

Chorus:
Give me faith to trust what You say
That You’re good, and Your love is great.
I’m broken inside, I give You my life.(repeat 2x)

**GIVE me faith***

We face each step with joy….

SORRY for the novel:)

~jessica

 

The nook….

We live in a modest home of about 1,700.. a normal 3 bed 2 bath kinda home.. When we found out we were being blessed with a #5.. we had to put on our thinking caps to figure out will little one will reside … We have the older two (boys) sharing a room and the younger two (girls) sharing.. and the girls room is full… 2 beds and a dresser and toys..(we have no play room).

I wanted to transform this space….

Master closet...

Master closet…

Into a baby retreat!!

Joel was less than thrilled with the idea.. so much that it wasn’t until the 9th month that it was transformed! 🙂

The nook is 4.5 ft wide by 8.5 ft long. Windowless, but has a vent to keep it the same tempiture as the rest of the house. We had a few stumbling blocks with arranging decor..the crib was 1/5 inch to long to go along the back of the room, thus no dresser would fit.. but in the end I love it!

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First up.. painting the yellowish builder grade paint to a creamy grey… bright and cheery and clean looking! AND you know the siblings had to get in on the action of painting.. and daddy was a good sport and walked it though it!

So with no further a due… her is out sweet # 5’s little nook… A walk in closet turned nursery!

IMG_20150202_170948518Although Small, A large impact..right!??! As you can see I continue with the theme from through out the pregnancy .. ARROW:) 90% of what i used came from my shower… and i love how it ties in!

the beautiful handmade blanket from my dear friends momnlaw. And the arrow-Asher one is the special one I purchased for him.

the beautiful handmade blanket from my dear friends momnlaw. And the arrow-Asher one is the special one I purchased for him. Changing pad I rigged.. (it is a bummer pad from another set, covered in a pillow case with a sheet protector covering that so it would be water proof! (and it fits on the book shelve perfectly!!)

The super cute arrow/named stamped blanket was purchased off etsy.. super great company!! https://www.etsy.com/shop/Katandstiina?page=1 click that sentence for a direct link!

although i am not 100% finished with this wall.. we are almost there! feathers on stick (stick was found by big brothers) feathers were made from paint chips!

although i am not 100% finished with this wall.. we are almost there! feathers on stick (stick was found by big brothers) feathers were made from paint chips! Prints were found on pintrest for free

a quiver full of arrows

a quiver full of arrows

One of my favorite decor pieces.. this is all the arrows made at my baby shower... by all my dearest friends!! I saw on pinterest a similar concept with flowers, showed Joel and boom! He came in the house with this beauty! love it!!!

IMG_20150202_170651931SOO i need to replace the picture frame but in time right!?!? 🙂

So in short this is our little Asher Quinns nursery! I love it! so a recap…

Asher

hope you love it as much as we do!

~jessica